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Well last night Rose and I decided to put our relationship on hold till after she get's back from France and see where things should go from there. Went from probably one of the best days I was having in awhile to one of the worst nights. Go figure. Happiness for long periods of time for me is elusive. Hell not even for moderated periods of time it seems like anymore. What was once something that could turn my day around by just thinking of them has become the thing that makes me so sad and detached from even myself anymore. It's not like it is something I want. Cause what I want is what was there before. What happened? Well there is more bad news but I will just have to get to that later. Drama in the Kerr house is unfolding.
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Ok I'm back. As far as the drama in the Kerr household, Emma apparently has cancer. The vet says they don't know where it is but her lungs and kidney's look to be ok. She has an infection that needs to be treated which is an effect of the cancer I believe Stacey said. Overall Dad said we need to be prepared to put her to sleep possibly soon. If this day could get any worse I don't know how right now.