Warning: Drawn Out Reflections and Just Pure Rambling

Today wasnt to bad. Very slow. I like those days but bad for buisness. (long sigh) Had to rearrange schedule to save labor. Always fun. Luckily the shifts for Gail and Janet that were cut they were not bothered by it at all. On a negative note Jason called in because his son, Gavin, was having problems breathing. When Jason called he sounded horrible. I vaguely knew he had a son but honestly I thought I misunderstood him when he said something about him. We were actually talking about our names, Gail, Janet, Jason, and I, and what we would or almost, or etc. named our kids and what our parents were thinking when they named us. About that time while we were talking about it Jason said he picked Gavin because it is unique for his son. As usual it didnt register with me until today when he called. Speaking of children I was talking to Carrie about her children and Christmas and she told me Steve was able to fly out Christmas Eve and stay for 5 days with them so he could see his kids for Christmas. She was also telling about what she was teaching Mason to say. I still can't believe how fast kids grow up. It's like it was just yesterday Mason was crawling around eating whatever choclate I could give him without Carrie knowing. And now he walks and talks. I always spoiled her children. And they know it too. Trinity would use it to her advantage whenever she would want candy at the store and Carrie would say no. She would just run to me and ask me to give it to her which I almost always did. I would always ask her first though if her mommy said it was ok and she would say yes she did. I will actually miss Carrie and her kids. Carrie was my only source of what ambition I had in this company. Pushing me to take promotions and working to get them for me when I told her ok. Other than our rough start we have both been there for each other helping each other get promoted. I remember when Kim was the manager at the store all the work me and her did to turn that store around. It seemed like we were the only ones who cared about what went on in that store. I'm not saying we were angels but at least we tried to turn around the place and put an end to alot of the stuff that happened. Honestly it seemed, and the way the partners there viewed it, Carrie and the manager and i was the asst. They went to us for the leadership and kim was just viewed and a figure head. No listened to anything she said until me or Carrie gave our opinion. All she, Kim, did was show up and then leave as soon as possible. Even when I left for the Valley Store I still kept in close touch with the store and it's running. Even to this day I still have some say in how it is ran. Not as much as before. I'm not helping with interviews and other etc. stuff. When I finally got a car I was there everyday to visit Carrie. After Carrie became SD, the only thing keeping from going back to the store was the fact I just came to valley but a month or two ago and my promise to Brandy. Plus Danielle said from the very begining I couldn't go back if the AD position opened back up. Later I learned you have to wait 6 months after transfering to transfer again. Honestly though by the time I could have transfered back down there, and trust me they tried to get me back, I didnt want to go back. The store I vowed to never work at originally drew me in. I came to love all the partners at this store, though they never have matched the partners I left, and Brandy was pregnant and she became someone I could talk to who had a diffrent perspective then my friends and prev. partners had. Now a year has passed since I moved down here and I am in a situation. Brandy has had her baby and Carrie is leaving to transfer to a Florida store so her and Steve can be together. I have known about this since about November. The only one besides Danielle for a long time and it was assumed though not said out loud by either of us that I would take over the PRP store. The time is nearing and it has become public knowledge to the district Carrie is leaving. The transfer is in the works and Carrie and Alaina have vocally said they want me to take the store. Alaina finally took the plunge to AD position based off two things. Carrie not giving her a choice this time, in a sense anyways, and because she wants me to come back. Ofcourse there are few partners left that were here, Valley, when I came down and the ones that are left work maybe one day and the other one i really rather not get into. I like the partners I work with currently and honestly I dont want to go to PRP because it wont be the same. Brandy from the begining always said she wanted to see me get my own store. And now would seem to be the perfect time. Granted she would need to get a new AD. Of the people that work there, if Brandy still wants one after I leave, there is one I would make my AD if she wanted it and that would be Janet. Other than all that the only partner keeping me there wont be there much longer. i dont need to get into that right now. this post is already very long and i can tell it is just going to get longer. plus i cant put into words what is going on in my head about her. I just dont want to leave Valley. It's my store now and I dont feel the same about PRP. As much as i love the PRP store and felt loyal to it in the past, it is not the same way i feel about the valley store. I have been more involved in this store in some ways i wasnt with the PRP store. I actually ran the store by myself for a short time, about a few weeks. I have alot of fond memories about the prp store but those were as a gsr and shift leader. as a manager it is diffrent. if i were to drop back down to a gsr or a shift leader then i would go back to the prp store immediatly. but that is diffrent. as a manager valley would be better. i have worked hard to adapt and have those adapt to me as the asst. there. It took me forever to quit comparing everything to prp, which brandy did a great job putting up with me, and doing things, well most things, the prp way. She now tells me when i compare us to other stores "we are not other stores." and she is right. The only reason I would go is for financial reasons.. I just cant afford to be an AD anymore. Plus i dont trust danielle honestly when it comes to pay. that is why i rather get a job somewhere else. it would be easier. if i could afford to go to school and still be an asst. director that would be great but i dont think it is possible. my raise is coming up and judging by what danielle has given me in the past i dont expect much at all. plus the raise dosnt come until april. i dont understand how you get reviewed in janurary and a raise dosnt come until april. oh well. wow i have gone on long enough. i can just keep going on rambling so let me get back to my original reason i posted.

where did i leave off......oh rose had to leave early because she hurt her ankle playing ddr the other day and she went to her doctor because it was still hurting. and then like i said jason called in. i had to find some one to come in and work his shift but when keena stoped by i asked her if she would want to because she thought she worked already until rose told her opposite earlier when keena called to actually see if she could leave early because she hurt her ankle too. she hurt hers at her other job lifting 40 lbs. cat food or dog food or something 40lbs. well she had to throw it above her or something, i assume on a top shelf and she twisted her ankle or something to the sort. later brandy came in and she told me while she was getting a ssc card for amanda as she was leaving she fell and twisted her ankle in the process too. she said amanda was ok but started crying from the jolt. it seems like everyone is hurting their ankles lately. well i called janet and she was able to come in at 5 instead of 7 and i stayed until 8, my original shift, instead of leaving at 7, so that she wouldnt be alone even if only for an hour. durbs even stopped by and stayed for like 2 or 3 hours talking and helping a little. then rose called and asked if i could come and give her a jump because she accidently left her lights on whie she was at the doctors office. it was funny when she called cause she asked if i could help her because her car wasnt starting. well i said ok where are you at. she said not far just accross the street. well i became confused and was trying to look around outside. if you seen me it was funny. i didnt even know the place across the street was a doctors office and i was trying to figure out where the hell the place was, when it was just across the street. i was racking my brains thinking there are only houses over there. rose had to explain to me look to the right. and i was like oh that place!! i am something else. i was kinda glad she called though because i was wondering if she would get to make it back over there. i didnt realize the place was so close. i was glad to get to see her even if for just a short time. any time is better than nothing. overall the day wasnt bad and the night wasnt to bad either. i got home around 9 ish and started reading my book and up until a little over an hour go was reading it. i completely lost track of time while reading. i always do when i start reading for any long period of time. i usually can read all day long with just a nap or two while doing it. the problem though is i forget to eat like tonite so far. my god i have been typing for about an hour now. i still need to post some lyrics for my other blog. also i decided to make sat. a dress down day since rose can not work friday and sat. will be her day back. i was orig. going to make it friday but sat. will be better anyways.

on another note next thursday we have a mandatory mgmt. meeting in new albany at 10 am. rose is going to ride out with me and i think i will just follow carrie to make sure i dont get lost. though i hope the ride will be less dangerous, i guess you could say, then when i followed her back from the last meeting. my god me and her need to take drivers ed again. we bout wrecked more times and i cut off a cop too. we were just in a hurry to get home. later that day is a holiday party at jillians at 6. we have to buy a present to attend though for 25 dollars. i dont know what to get and i asked carrie and she said she didnt know either. i want to get something i can claim for petty though to help with the cost. i told rose that if she wanted to go i would pay half for hers too. i think i will ask diana what a good gift idea would be. i do know it obviously has to be unisex. i hate picking out stuff. also the gifts are going to be given out using a game? called white elephant. i think it is a game. in short the person picked last gets their pick of anything they want. let me explain it clearer real quick. the first person drawn picks anything they want. the second person can either take what the first person got or pick something else. the third can either take what the 1st or 2nd took or pick something else. and on and on. Supposed to be fun. I'll post and let yall know how it turns out.

Oh we hire 4 new people. 1 new SL and 3 GSR's. the new sl is brad, a kid i went to school with, and the gsr's were nathan, george, and alex. me and rose really like george and hopefully he will work out as good as we plan. as for the other two we shall see. tim's sister goes to school and said nathan was bragging about being at either the interview or orientation high. we really didnt need 3 gsr's but you never know what could happen and we just wernt sure whether to pick alex or nathan so we will just let their performance speak for it self.

well i guess i am going to go now. kinda running low here. havnt eating anything yet and i have a headache. sorry for just ramblin on like that but i warned you in the title. as you can see i cant focus on one subject though honestly i did a good job in this post. you should have seen the journals i use to keep for english class. ofcourse they wernt typed and i couldnt go back and edit or insert in more thoughts where they fit. stuff would just be everywhere. thank god the teachers never really read them they probably wouldnt be able to understand what i was saying. i have a tendency to be vague. oh my god there i go again about nothing. i need to go. good night everyone.

[Listening to: By Myself - Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory (03:10)]