Neg Attitude

Well my overall neg. attitude is spreading and people are starting to notice it seems. Usually the one to try and look on the bright side of things, well for the most part when the situation isn't all about me. Dave told me at work I was starting to depress him in my bitching and ranting about stuff at work. Again, when talking to Dave usually I'm the one trying to be positive and him being the neg. one. And Lance just told me earlier him and Anthony feel I have been so easy to snap for no reason at all. And he's right. I have been worse then ever about snapping on them. And I guess it's not getting any better. I just look at everything in a neg. view a lot of the day. I try to be in a good mood but it takes too much energy it feels like. God I'm so tired of this. I guess it's because I am so discontent with life right now. I feel there is things I want and I just can't have, at least not so far or not for the foreseeable future. And other things just don't seem like they are going to change. Well something needs to change and soon because I feel I am on a self destructive path right now. All I do when I get home from work is lay in bed and not get up unless I have to..... (sighs). Alright thank you for listening. I'm out.

Kurtis @ 9:14 pm