small update

omg work has been so crazy lately. i feel so overworked i could just drop dead. on the plus side after next sat i will not be working at hollywood anymore. thank god. well hell speaking of that reminds me i need to go to bed so i can open in the morning. hmm i wonder if james is working tomorrow at pizza hut. shockingly he wasn't there tonight when i went over there for food. seems like since todd was fired hes been worked to death and never gets to leave the place. oh and alex is supposed to be moving ot another location to be a shift leader. lindsay is still there so i'll still at least know one other non=manager person over there. let me see what else. oh i went in and worked for janet tonight because she was sick. and let me tell you she sounded like shit when i talked to her on the phone. she is supposed to close tomorrow also so we shall see if that happens. which reminds me i need to use up my sick days. one i plan on using legitimately because i am do for a dentist appointment. i was going to schedule it for next week but now shit is piling up at work and it's going to be one hell of a week again. god i need a break from life. i just want to find my inner self and be one with myself and nothing else around me. i just want to escape from my life right now. i dont mean suicide for those jumping to conclusions. just as i said before, i want a break from life. you see life sucks for me right now. not much i can do about it right now either. all will be taken care of soon enough. not soon enough but i just have to wait. patience is a virtue after all they say. everyone tells me i need to calm down and relax. some tell me i just need to forget my problems. i just cant. i'd love to but i cant. i feel the end is near and don't have a plan for it. working on it. will it work whatever i plan? speaking of plans, yes i know it's an abrupt change of pace, come April i get two weeks of vacation. which for me means that one week of that i, originally anyways, planned on taking a trip out of town and just get away and relax. i don't care where just need to get away from everyone. more importantly march is now just that much closer and that means time to work on my ultimate goal of 2007. independence. there is some irony to that by the way if you know the number one major reason i want independence. oh well. i need a new start in life any way the wind blows. ok enough rambling for the night. i'll try to write tomorrow. well maybe not. i did plan on going to lance and anthony's and i'll probably be spending the night since i dont have to open on sunday. cant drive when im dead tired and i know i will be over there god know how late, and lance is trying to get me drunk again. apparently it's funny how i act. what ever. like i was saying before....good bye.

kurtis @ 3:12a